The days of co-sleeping are coming to an end. Charlotte has been in my bed forever now, and while it didn’t bother me at first, it’s bothering me now. She talks in her sleep, she requests music at 1 AM, she shouts out “mommy hold me, I so bery cold!” I cannot take it anymore. I honestly can’t remember the last time I got any uninterrupted sleep. It is maddening. So I’m making the decision to gradually shift her to her own room and her own bed. I have no idea what I’m doing and want to make it as painless as possible for the both of us. So I started yesterday, on daylight savings day, because I’m a moron.
It wasn’t as bad as I thought, but it wasn’t great. I’m hopeful though. I gave her melatonin because I was not messing around last night. I bought the kids one that says its all natural, blah blah blah, so I assume it’s fine. It’s fine! She fell asleep on the couch around 8 which was a miracle in and of itself, and Eric put her to bed in her own room. And then I couldn’t fall asleep because I had anxiety about when she would wake up and call for me because I am ruined from this child’s sleep habits. She woke up once at 11 and I was able to rub her back and she went back to sleep. She woke up again at 1 calling for me and asking me to lay down, so I did for about 5 minutes and she went back to sleep again. Annoying that I had to be woken up, but optimistic that she went back to bed quickly. But then she woke up at 2 and started shouting “SAM! SAM! SAM!” and was wandering the hallway and at this point I just told her to come in my bed because I was exhausted and I obviously suck at sleep training. But when she starts calling me by my name then shit is about to hit the fan and I wasn’t playing games anymore. I’m hopeful for tonight though. Baby steps, right? I mean, she’s only 3. I’ve screwed it up for this long, what’s the harm in doing this gradually at this point?
Any ideas are welcome! Just do me a favor and don’t tell me melatonin is bad. I have no time for that kind of negativity.